released August 30, 2019

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in order of appearance
Eliza Niemi ~ cello (track 1)
Anh Phung ~ flutes (track 3, 4)
Jess Shane ~ voice on track 3
Aley Waterman and Adrienne McLaren ~ voices on track 5

sounds from track 2 found at 12th ave SW x 10th st. SW, calgary
sounds from track 5 found in dufferin grove park, toronto

recorded in my room, toronto
(except for flutes - recorded in Anh’s room)
mixed by evan j cartwright
mastered by Josh Cole

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big thanks to Lukie, Thom, Sari, Romy

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should i?
could i? could i mend your dress?
just for this once?
could i? could i kiss you?
just for this once?
could i? or rather, should i?
for what my heart wants
is almost never what another’s heart wants

should i even bother?
an empty cup is just another taste
should i?
for what my heart wants
is almost never what another’s heart wants
and, sadly,
just once could never be enough

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leaving
sometimes people go and then they go and then
they wonder why we’re blue
sometimes people try and then they try and then
they wish it wasn’t true
pack your bags. i’ll grab my coat. this road’s not the only road.

sometimes people cry and then they cry. oh what
a silly thing to do
and sometimes people die and then they die
and then we’re left without a clue
pack your bags. i’ll grab my coat. this road’s not the only road.
pack your bags. i’ll grab my coat. this road’s not the only road

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no no no. not on love
i don’t want to give up on love.
that’s why i’m moving so slow.
sometimes i wonder if you even know
how nice it is down here. california
is quite the place. but i still miss your face
most times.
i’m not trying to make you mad, but
i’m telling you now that you’re the truest friend i’ve ever had
and i know that that’s an unfair card to play.
will you still love me anyway? though i spill the milk,
and spoil the day,
and often don’t have much to say?

i’m not giving up on love
and i’m sorry that it’s gotta be this way.
i hope you can laugh it off.
it’s just that i might never get another chance
to feel the way that loving you has made me feel.
so i can’t. no, i won’t. no, i shouldn’t. i don’t.
i don’t want to give up on love.

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at the end
some things take some time.
for example: a man to age.
and in that stretch of time many things will change.
but if this was the only time i had to be with you, my friends.
i’d hope an aging man could find a way.